Gone with the summer wind

Hello chummies!!! Well I have to say I think that I have neglected my blog   But no worries my dears I’m back! So I got into Ashe Idol, not a huge deal but makes me believe and CAN really sing well. Today’s the second round and friday the 13th, wish me luck. I’m going to visit my hopefully future college in a few weeks and I can’t wait. It’s Salem College in Winston-Salem, all women’s school! Oh I must tell everyone about the drama IN DRAMA class. IT’S RIDICULOUS!!!! I’m ready to get the whole thing over, and so is everyone else. Although I just play the Captain of the Royal Navy, I stand in for EVERYONE, so I hope I get some kind of consideration for that. Nah I dont need it, I just hope it goes well. Wish us luck!

Blue blue eyes

So! so far my plan to swear off boys is working out quite well! Of course I’ve had my share of extra looks and all but I’m actually liking it. Its so much easier right now to not think of the guy I liked that way, or any guy for that matter.

At the moment I’m on two books at once (of course) one is Twice apon a Marigold (squel) by Jean Ferris, who of course is one of my favorite authors, along with Gereld Morris. They are witful funny writers that keep things apporiate but quite interesting. (Librarian talking there, sorry). The other is Song of the Sparrow by Lisa Sandell. It’s in poem form like Out of the Dust. I’m in a Artherian mood this month so I’ve chosen these to keep me company.

Sadly more often now I have the feeling of runing away. I just feel it wouldn’t be so bad, and I wish I could. Thats why its so hard to be here right now and put an effort into the things I do, but I’m getting better. I’ve started writing again, which keeps me busy. Its a new modern Romeo and Juliet, of course, with many twist, and Tiffany was the inspriration for this one. of course I’ve put characters that relate to my buds in there, including me. My character is Maragret, shes in the Nurse’s postion in the context, but the twist is, she dies near the end. This isn’t the death wish for me, but I saw it in my head and it seemed like such a good twist and bang for an ending. Tell me what you guys think.

There silver slippers man, silver, not ruby. Color blind much!

So I’m reading The Wizard of Oz and the slippers are silver!!! NOT RUBY!!!!! Thats like the biggest movie fanchize thing in the history and they didn’t even get it right! That made me mad. Oh well. I’m going to boone tomarrow but I have to have someone go with me, I’ve yet to find someone. I’m just going to look for my wicked witches costume for Halloween!! Only a few weeks left! but silver man.

 

Morgan Le Flay was not angry, she was just upset because a house landed on her sister!

So I guess I should say something about this down period I’m going through, but I’d rather not. I’m at Mel’s at the moment and having a pretty good time. So I’m reading Arthurian Legands right now, which I’ve always loved. Lancalot is a *beep*, and Guinavere is a *beep*; excuse my langauge but it always upsets me how they could do that. Really Guin is giving up on KING ARTHUR who is like the perfect speciman of a man for a guy with a name like Lancalot, sounds like a sexually confused horse. And Lance for goodness sakes is going against the major rules of bro manship! So heres my proposel: Lancey and Guin go and get married before Arthur has anything to do with her, and Arthur marrys Elaine of Shalott and they have pretty babies that can sing really well. That is my lament. Drive safe.

Take a Bow…………

Well I told the guy I liked I liked him, I sort of just exploded because I was tired of alot of stuff. It happened yesterday and today was ok, but I still feel weird, thats one thing I hate about my personality, most people feel like weights are lifted off their shoulders and I just feel like my load is bigger. But whatever! I’ve decided to swear off boys till I graduate. I can be friends with them, say their hot and talk about them; but forget about crushes and heartbreakers, no more. And this weekend I’m going to have a great time, no matter what. I mean its my b-day, and even though i don’t believe in Sweet sixteens (I think ur sixteenth is the same as any other, accept 21), I’m going to use it as an excuse. Alright so a few words before I go away Don’t do drugs, Never drink and drive, and don’t have sex ROCK ON NUNS OF THE FUTURE!!!! oh and a few words from your local FOX Glee club

 

I have got a crush, oh my baby on you…..

I sadly one of the worst kinds of crushes ever. I’ve enthatuated with one of my great guy friends, and me being my brave self has decided to tell him…….. shoot. The real reason to tell him isnt so I can be sweept up in his arms and he pronoce his undying love for me. No, I just want this bit of closer, so that I can stop thinking of my chances and move on, but still be the best of friends with him. Forever I said I would never tell him, but my heart, mind, and oddly enough stomach is telling me that he, and my stomach, deserves the right to know.

To busy finding Babylon

I want out. Right now! It’s not the repetition of each day or the constant same conversations, no it’s just me. I NEED out. I talked to my mom about it the other night, and I know it would be hard to for HER to pack up and leave right now, but I know she’d do it if we had to, but it wouldn’t be for me. I keep thinking maybe I could just go to a boarding school for a while or something. I just can’t be here anymore. It’s not my friends or family or classmates, its just ME. It’s like I laying against a cold flat rock. My heart aches for something else. It’s not like I wouldn’t miss my friends, because i know I would worry about them all the time its just that I need to leave this place. I don’t feel like I belong here (as in this place, not in existence) everything aches everyday. I thought maybe I should talk to the guidance consular, but of course they change on me and now I have Coach Tasso (supposed mafia man) as a GC and of course he wasn’t here today. I talked to mom of course but sometimes I just need to talk to someone who doesn’t know me and can give me something new to say or think about. Well soon I’ll be off to find my Babylon. OH! and people should read Chop, Chop by L.N. Cronk. I’m really loving it, half way through it first day reading it!

T-o-d-a-y, H-o-y……..

I’m waiting for something to happen, not just anything but SOMETHING. Its like I’m about to touch it, but then….. it changes places. I’m not sure what it is, but I’m hoping whatever it is will come quick and not keep me on edge for weeks, like usual. Like waiting for…….. magic. Hoping the scripts come in Monday, I’m tired of waiting. Woodstock movie came out today! Wish I could go see it, but I’m a minor. So i’ll be sitting here, waiting………………………………………..

Nargle!!!

So I’m hoping we cast today, or at least talk about it. I want maude sooooooo bad and if one of those sophmores get it, I’ll be pretty mad. Catering tonight! last night I fell asleep against the sink peeling shrimp, true story! I sort of just want to go home, but maybe I can get to bed early tonight. I’m happy my little brother *mephorically* is in a good mood, two days running! Want to go to sarah’s (cuz) house this weekend, and go to b0one to find pirate clothes. Bored bored bored. need music. blarg, BYE this is what my kitchen looked like last night for the catering. GUMBO!!!

GUMBO MAN!!!!

The Killers and Merle Haggard

The killers are a great band and I love listening to their music. Lately I’ve been listening to the old Merle Haggard stuff my dad used to sing to me.  Maybe its because I’ve been a little down lately, or maybe its the flu empidemic going on *puts germx on* but who knows. Waiting for the witch trials to began. In those days I’d probably become a witch just to p’ them off. Lol no I guess I wouldn’t, I’d go back to Europe. I’m reading a new book (last of the mohicans was boring and really hard to keep up with.) Its about female pirates (getting ready for jolly roger.) I cant wait to know my part. I’ll be so happy if I get maude! Last night at the game was ok, I guess. Got mad at a few of my friends a little but we get over it. But everyone is going home *sprays keyboard with disifectant* they’ll probably close schools if it doesn’t stop fast. 3 cases of swine flu in the county, and swine flu is just like regular flu *more germx* well type you guys late.